Someday...

I have had stomach problems from the time I moved here to Utah 8 years ago. I have been passed from one Doctor to the next having a total of 7 gastroenterologist. I spent multiple weeks at a time in Primary Children's Hospital. They did test after test, finding nothing. Twice I ended up in the resuscitation room and twice in ICU. I became weak and frustrated. I have had feeding tubes and a pic line. But, I had to learn to live with it very quickly. It wasn't easy but I learned to keep a good attitude and keep my spirits up. I knew my Heavenly Father loved me and He knew just what I was going through.

I still have problems to this day....in fact I ended up in the ER last Thursday Night in the middle of the night. All day Thursday I didn't have much of an appetite. Then, that night my stomach started cramping really bad. So I went to bed hoping to sleep it off, but instead I woke up really sick and was soon loosing blood. I called my mom in Sandy and told her I needed to go to the Emergency. She said she would meet me there. So I called Tyler, who was sweet enough to come get me to drive me over. I felt so bad bc I know he is working like crazy and he seemed really tired. But we got there and they took me back and gave me an IV which took them 2 tries...better then usual. They gave me fluids and some Zofran for the Nausea. I fell asleep with my mom at my side who also fell asleep. I didn't blame her, I did call her at 2 am! I love you mom! Anyways, they were baffled and the ER Dr. said that my GI Doctor really needed to figure something out bc this has been going on way too long! Yeah, tell me about it....8 years and counting. So after they gave me fluids, took blood, and made sure I wasn't anemic, they sent me home.
Someday they will figure something out....Someday I will understand the point of this trial and what I am supposed to learn from it...someday I will be perfectly healthy...Someday...

I am scheduled to have my gallbladder out next Friday by Dr. Peugh....apparently the best in Utah. That will hopefully help a little bit with some of my recent and different symptoms. I know, my body is crazy, weird, and a little messed up. But what do you do. I can't just quit living. So, I keep on moving forward, doing the things that I love to do to keep my mind off of it. I know my Heavenly Father wouldn't give me anything that I couldn't handle and I know he is there for me every step of the way. I love the following poem which I am sure many of you have heard. But it has helped me through the past years.

Footprints in the Sand
One night I had a dream.
I dreamed I was walking along the beach
with the Lord..
Across the sky flashed scenes from my life..
For each scene, I noticed two sets of
footprints in the sand,
one belonging to me, and the other to the Lord..
When the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of my life
there was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times in my life.
This really bothered me
and I questioned the Lord about it:
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why
when I need you most you would leave me."
The Lord replied:
"My precious child, I love you and would
never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints, it was then
that I carried you."

-By Mary Stevenson

I know that my Heavenly Father loves me and that He will never leave me. He is there to comfort me and help me through these hard times when I need Him most. Someday I will run into His arms and I hope I will be able to tell I him I did my very best. Someday I will be healed. Someday...